Now that I have my
PMP, I seem to have lost mine -- my motivation and purpose that is. I find myself suddenly exhausted, tired, unmotivated, and unsure of what to do with myself next.
The first few days after I passed the test, I was still in shock. I went to work on Friday, we celebrated again that night, plus Star Wars: The Last Jedi:
Saturday was a whirlwind of getting Joy off to the airport (that was a minor misadventure), and I think I finally started collapsing on Sunday. I didn't want to do anything or go anywhere, especially since I had gym at 6am on Monday morning.
But this whole past week I feel like I am living in a fog. I have free time, but no purpose, no motivation to do more than the bare minimum, and no idea what I should be doing next. Wait, scratch that, I have plans for next steps, but needs funds.
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My body has been acting weird, too. Back pain has returned,
despite deadlifts, which adds to the fatigue, and I had the start of a migraine at work (I keep
Excedrin Migraine in my bag now, so that was managed), and sleep has been erratic, I'm just a physical mess now that I am not in constant study mode. Or at least that's what it feels like.
I guess next steps are to get through the holidays and winter blues, the days only get longer from here right? And now that I know I need concrete goals to work towards, figure out funding for next steps.
I'll leave you with this result from my motivation search. I suddenly feel better.