PMDD Strikes Again
No, I am not suffering drug-induced withdrawal. It only feels that way. My back pain has been increasingly worse over the last two weeks. My chiro, who knows me so well, asked me to look at the calendar. Yup, I ovulated. That was the start.
Then I noticed I was bit more snappish than usual and blamed PMS, but then I remembered I've been feeling off-kilter for most of the month. My symptoms probably started recurring last month and I know that the third month of the cycle is the worst. If this is month 2, next month is going to be
- Depression ✓ - fighting it with chocolate and sunshine
- Irritability ✓
- Anger ✓
- Extreme sensitivity
- Lack of interest in familiar activities ✓ - just leave me alone
- Withdrawal from family and friends ✓ - well we already paid, might as well go
- Anxiety ✓
- Feelings of being overwhelmed ✓✓
- Fatigue or lack of energy ✓- P90X has been put off
- Feelings of hopelessness
- Trouble concentrating ✓
- Overeating or a lack of appetite ✓ - must be the 4lb weight gain recently
- Insomnia or sleeping too much ✓
- Breast tenderness and pain
- Weight gain and bloating ✓
- Muscle pains and aches ✓✓✓✓ #chronicpaincansuckit
I used to be on Zoloft and Yaz to control the symptoms, especially after I lost one job due to too many days out, always occurring right around ovulation and the first day of my period (cramping and bleeding heavy enough to make me wish I was in the hospital). That's almost a week out every single month. Doesn't look good to the employer. Especially in a small business. I didn't know at the time that there was a reason, I didn't track it, I didn't get help, I just dealt with it.
Now I'm practically religious about using P&O Tracker, but with switching phones, I forgot to export the data, didn't enter notes or dates for the last few months and was completely blind-sided this month. So yeah, I screwed myself. I just wish my body didn't hate me the way it does.
Time to pop some more Advil. Aiming for 1000mg today, then switching to Tylenol. And I'll be eating chocolate, diet be damned this week. I'll make it up on the weekend.
By the way, you will never meet women so glad to start the rag as those with PMDD. The bleeding means that the emotional roller-coaster is over. I can live without the cramps though. Maybe I should get back on the Pill...
I hate not being in control of my emotions.