Mamavation Monday: Supersize Me

April 25, 2011
192.2lbs. Body fat at 38.1%
Well, Easter Sunday was quite the wake-up for me. Actually it was Saturday night that had me almost crying in the dressing room of my local Target. In four years I have managed to double my size, and it's not a thyroid issue. My doctor has checked often enough since one of my chief complaints is fatigue.

Four years ago at Easter I looked like this:

Me and the Teen
No double chin. I fit in a size 8 dress (barely). I was comfortable being a size 8/10 and hovering between 150-160 depending on the time of the month. And I didn't have a muffin-top! A few weeks ago my size 14 pants and skirts were starting to feel comfortable and even a little loose.

The Drama
Saturday my son comes to me and asks if he has to dress up for Easter service. I realize that yes, he needs to dress up and I haven't even bought my dress yet. So off to Target we go about 9:30 that night (this is what procrastination will get you!). After picking out his shirt he abandoned me to look for a dress by myself.

Slim pickings for sure! But I found a dress I like that is wearable for more than just Easter and slink off to the dressing room with the size 14. Last summer I was a size 12. I can barely deal with being a 14.

The 14 was too tight. And it was a "roomy" dress. I could barely get it over my fat ass and the zipper wouldn't go up past my hips either. I was finally able to shimmy out of it, slink back to the rack and thankfully found a 16, praying that it would fit because I was too embarrassed to go back into the dressing room.

The next morning I had to squeeze into shapewear and then the dress. At least it was cut to hide the belly (good pleating!). I still *felt* like a stuffed sausage, and too embarrassed to take a picture of what I look like now.

So this week I am re-committing to getting rid of my Costco-sized muffin top. I mentioned that we were going to start P90X a few weeks ago, I think it's time to get off my butt and just do it.



4 comments:

  1. Want to be weight loss buddies with me?

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  2. Angela@ninemoremonthsApril 28, 2011 3:10 PM

    I hear you. I have had plenty of those moments in the Target dressing room, hiding from the cameras even on the holidays. The good news is you can do something about it! Make it a goal that by next Easter you'll be in a 12 or a 10 or whatever size you would be comfortable in. :)

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  3. Gladly! I have about 50lbs to lose. We started P90x last night.

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  4. I'm definitely trying. Self-discipline and denying myself is new to me. I never had an issue with food before now. The desk job isn't helping either. But at least I don't have the insane commute anymore.

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