I hate being alone with my thoughts
They aren't good thoughts. They aren't uplifting, nor inspiring, nor especially good for my self-esteem. I think that is why I have been hating the drive to Vegas and this whole season. It gives me too much time to think and reflect. And leaves me in a lot pain, which is always a mood-lifter for me. I've been canceling on people lately because of the pain and depression, feeling more and more anti-social. I really don't want to be the life of the party, but can someone drag me out once it in a while? Self-reflection is NOT what I need right now. It leads to drinking, and drinking leads to anxiety, and anxiety attacks, and that whole scenario is just bad.
But if you insist on being an enabler, I'm just about out of Bailey's and completely out of everything else.