The silence is deafening. Kinda good, kinda bad. I’m always looking for something to keep me busy, occupied. I am not good at being still. I fidget a lot more than I used to. Today we had our first counseling session. First time I have ever been in one. I AM screwed up nine ways from Sunday. Lots of issues, one may be ADHD. And addiction, two things that have come up recently from other people who suffer from similar issues. At least there’s a reason I’m nutzoid. I thought it was just me being irresponsible. Which isn’t to say that I shouldn’t change my behavior, but the counselor wants to work on the roots of some of my problems, especially the addiction one. That’s a biggie right now.