The other day I made the observation that the state of the house is a reflection of the state of our marriage. On days when things are going great, I have the motivation and energy to keep it presentable. When things aren't going so good, the house is in a state of total disrepair. For the last week and a half I have had no motivation. I have a 3-yr-old daughter. And take care of an 18-month-old. Use your imagination.

Today I thought I would wake up early and get a good start on it. Instead, I have been writing, and thinking, and writing some more. I just want this all to go away and be fixed. Why can't I have a magic wand? Or a magic oil lamp?

I wish some outside observer could/would say "See, here's where you did wrong, and here are the resultant consequences. Let's not make that mistake again" and even "See, here's what you are doing now. Does any of this look even remotely familiar?"

Well, I guess I can Flylady crisis clean. That will at least get the house presentable. I need more storage solutions.